lilacs

Some things instantly make me think of you... some are obviously, like raspberries and tractors, but it's funny how it can be lilacs, hydrangeas, even tulips too since you mentioned that you had some growing in your flower beds that first spring in your house.

It's lilac time and when I see the blooms on my lilac I'm thinking of you.

When you bought your little house the backyard had a row of lilacs, a hedge really of lilacs.  That first year you were there I was pretty excited to see what colors they would be and stop by to "steal" a few when they were in bloom.  Last year you brought me a big jug of cut lilacs... they were getting to the end of their blooming but still smelled so wonderful and of course, the thinking of your mama part was nice.

Then just a couple of weeks before you died you brought me two bunches of hydrangeas... The big purple ones and some smaller blue ones... They lasted well into September and October.  At one point I had them on my dresser so I could look at them every night before I went to bed.  I had hoped that they would dry nicely and I could keep them but they didn't, although I still have them.... and I had taken pictures of them that day you brought them to me, so I can always remember them and you.

Flowers for your mom, what a thoughtful young you had become.  Missing you each and every day.

Love you more,
Mom