closing out 2013

It's been a rough day... not only have the holidays been difficult, the idea of moving into a new year, your upcoming birthday... but today a couple more young men from Ferndale and Lynden have died on this last day of 2013.

I'm sorry to say that one was a friend of yours, a fishing buddy.  If there is a heaven then I guess you already know that and perhaps you two have been out wading through some fishing holes... I feel for both families since I know the shock and pain they are all going through right now.  And your mutual friends... well obviously it's been a tough year for them too.

I'm so damn mad at the senselessness of all of this, questioning what is the purpose of putting all of us through this journey to no where... sick of hearing about heaven and angels, yet afraid at the same time that if they don't exist it will mean never seeing you again.

Missing you on this last day of 2013,
Love you more,
Mom