waiting

It's been over 5 months now.  After those first few days of shock and numbness wore off, well I've felt like I've been waiting for something.  I'm not sure what... kind of like the feeling when you're getting ready to go somewhere and you're waiting to go... just a feeling  in the back of my mind, all the time... like you're not quite where you're going yet... just waiting.

I'm just unsure of what it is I'm waiting for...

Love you more,
Mom