25

Today you would have been 25. 

And here we are again... last year was the first birthday we didn't spend together.  It's hard to get past that.  Twenty three birthdays and each and every one you spent with us.

I miss the baby you were, the little boy you became and the young man you were becoming.  

I know if I live 23 1/2 years without you, I will miss you each and every day.

Love you more,

Mom

2015

It's hard to believe we've started another year with out you in it.  After 16 months it is still so hard to believe you're gone.

Many people say it gets easier as time goes by.... that you are able to feel grateful for the memories instead of feeling pain and wishing things had worked out differently.  Me?  I think you just get used to living with an empty space within yourself, a hole forever in your heart that nothing can ever fill.

Everyday of 2014 was a lesson in acceptance... of the fact we cannot change the past and time keeps marching on.

Wish you were here to wish a happy 2015.

Love you more,
Mom